Hi everyone, I want to try something a bit different than the norm. We will call it: My thoughts.
Before I get into this partial journal of my thoughts. I would like to share that for the past month or more I have suffered very much. Physically as I stated in my most recent Newsletter. Thank God the tooth is getting better. But also a lot of mental and spiritual attacks which in turn has affected my mind and heart very much so. But last night in bed, after days of anger and hate building in me. I listened to a few Steve Green songs that I always used to listen to as a child. It brought me back to my childhood days, when I was full of peace and joy and all I thought about was to tell others of Jesus my Wonderful Saviour. I want to be that kid again, I want to be free to love as Jesus does. Today the Word of God confirmed last nights message to me, through Psalm 16:7-” I will bless the LORD, who hath given me counsel: my reins also instruct me in the night season.”
But this world keeps smashing me down. (As I am writing this, the Holy Spirit put a Psalm in my mind and I have my Bible with me so I turn and the first passage marked in green is the exact one I was thinking about. No coincidence there. Praise the LORD) So here it is, it resonates with my whole life. I suggest you read the whole chapter, but here is Psalm 109:4-5. It says-” For my love they are my adversaries: but I give myself unto prayer. And they have rewarded me evil for good, and hatred for my love.”
Do you know how much it hurts that others will hurt you and hate you because you love? My love is genuine and true. I kept going on when this evil and corrupt government demanded we stop. I couldn’t stop, even though sometimes I wish I had. I was sick years ago and the LORD healed me and led me to do likewise for others. When I see people suffering, whether it be their health or anything for that matter, God within me, moves me to help them. It is not of me, it is of Him that I went on, it is all Jesus Christ. Therefore if I suffer and hurt, it is for Him. The least I can do is sit here and do a little bit of time for Him. Don’t get me wrong, it is a continuous battle of the wills. I want to do what I want to do. I want to go home and be with my family. But God doesn’t want that right now, NOT YET!!! God is working on something big!!!
Here’s a few thoughts of a prisoner, that maybe you should think about.
What do prisoners think like? What goes through our minds day in and day out? Well, I would like to share some of my thoughts with you all. Some might be dark, some might be enlightening. But I can assure you that you do not want the thoughts of a prisoner. Why? Because that would make you one.
So take what I write with a grain of salt. Not all might be truth,its just thoughts that run through my head at times.
I have seen many men completely snap while I have been “in”. The pressure on the mind seems to be enough to cause one to pass diamonds. If you know what I mean. A never ending chipping away of your mind. O the horror.
There are not many things that I hate more than being locked up. I will keep the rest to myself as I have very little good or no good at all to say about the remaining things I hate. Satan being the main one. But we must trust the LORD through it all and continue to tell everyone about the Gospel of Grace, especially those who mistreat us. It is very hard, actually impossible for me to do on my own. So when I am having hate and anger in my heart towards all those who have mistreated me, some more than others. I must understand that it is my carnal nature. Then more than ever I must surrender my will to the LORD. Like I said, it is impossible to do with out the guidance and help of the Holy Spirit.
Now what I say below is just comparing 2 places and situations. Big difference is that those who are still alive, still have a chance to come to Jesus Christ as their Lord and Saviour and repent of their sins. Because after this life, there are no more opportunities. As I write this post,(I haven’t had a very good attitude lately) a few verses keep coming to my mind. Psalm 139:7-8. And it says-” Whither shall I go from thy spirit? or wither shall I flee from thy presence? If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou are there.”
The LORD is with me everywhere and always. So therefore I shall be comforted in this.
I believe that prison or being locked up in any manner is a preview of hell. Of course I am not comparing the both, just saying. Hell is a prison, that’s all I meant by that, o yea and the torture and the evil ones around you. Some inmates are like the lost souls, lost in the eternal flames. But they still have a chance while they are living. So we keep telling them the Truth. And the guards and people who work in this hellish system are like the demons. Slaves to a devilish system. Unlike in hell, are all these people bad and evil? Of course not. I am only comparing in ways. You see, the fallen angels that followed Satan, they did that because they didn’t want to obey God and they wanted to do their own thing. Anyone working in this system, even if they mean good, in due time they will sell their souls for the mighty dollar or power. Should people be in prison or locked up? Of course. Some people are just down right dangerous. But I think there should be a better way of doing things. Not a modern way of slavery, making money off of other people’s lives instead of trying to help people fix their lives. This system destroys families, I see it everyday. I just don’t think this system is doing a good job. A lot of innocent people are in prison. Or even guilty people given so much time that not only are their lives ruined but their families lives also. I have seen many people get 40-50 years for bank robbery and for having a gun. While no one was hurt or injured, they still gave them that much time. And I have seen murderers get less than half that time. Tell me, is that right? Is that justice?
You might not care because it hasn’t happened to you yet. But don’t kid yourself, the more power we give the so called “government” and its diabolical agencies. Guess what comes after that? Yep, all rights will be gone, there aren’t much anymore anyways. I do commend President Trump for wanting to root out fraud and corruptness, but can this system be fixed? Or must it go? I believe it must go so we can get back to the basics where the government serves the people, not us them. And that government officials, all of them, are held accountable for wrong doing. Why do you think judges wreak havoc and do what they please, whether persuaded by others or just power hungry? Because no one is held accountable.
One example that made me sick in Miami, was a judge that was retiring at like 90 years old. They named a building after him and gave him a plaque for sentencing people in his career for a total of over 1 million years. How sick is that? Why should we be encouraging this? This is sad. There has to be something done wrong if we are putting so many people into prison and for so long. There must be a better way to reduce crime because giving people so much time and ruining families lives has a domino affect. Now that son or daughter doesn’t have anyone to raise them and teach them, so they fall right into what mom or dad did. This evil system loves this, because it insures them that they will have more “clients”. Its all sick.
Do I have all the answers? No I don’t. But things aren’t working, so what is the root of the problem then? We got away from faith in the LORD Jesus Christ as a nation and here lies the problem. If Jesus Christ doesn’t reign in your life, then all hell is unleashed. Which has happened to America.
Another quick example. People like myself who stood for their rights, get more time than some murderers and child molesters. Hmmm. What in the “hell”(meaning in prison, I aint cussing for those who are offended by every little thing) is going on?
So are you liking some thoughts of a prisoner? Or do you just want him to just shut up? A CO said to me once that ignorance is bliss. I say, until that snake bites you in the butt that is. I think what I am saying will open up the eyes of those on the outside who think that everything is hunky dory in the USA INC. It is still a corporation even though the new administration is doing some positive things. I just don’t think it can be fixed, it must be destroyed and began anew with people who suffered, such as myself. Because those who suffer for righteousness sake, understand that corruptness must not exist, not even a small amount. They hate it, because of what it has done to them, so they will fight it vehemently.
Ok, so here goes. Some more of my thoughts. I don’t have all the answers, so don’t expect them.
Are true believers, so called “Christians” working in this evil and corrupt DOJ, BOP, FDA, etc? I believe that when you work in any job, and after sometime you see corruptness going on and you just turn your head or join in the corruptness, then you become a participant of it. And therefore, whether you are a believer in Jesus Christ or not, you will be living in sin.
Do you believe my dad, brothers and I were kidnapped? Or do you only believe that happens outside of the USA? Why doesn’t it matter when the “government” kidnaps its own people?
We want to save those who are kidnapped and hostages in other parts of the world, which is great. But why do we ignore those who are kidnapped in our own country? I know why. Because we want to save face, as such a great nation of law and order. We want to hide the truth of what we truly are as a nation. We are not a nation for the people and of the people. Our “government” is fraudulent and has been for many years now. We the people need to root out the evil and corrupt agencies and officials. But I believe that more than 90% of people in government are either down right corrupt or compromised in one way or another. And to afraid to stand against evil. So they keep their mouths shut about the kidnapping of our own people and many more things going on. I believe only through the Spirit of Almighty God will we not fear man and what he can do to us and then and only then will we stand for the Truth. And as you might have heard before, the Truth will make you free… Jesus is the Truth, come to Him to be made free…
I apologize if this letter seems scattered. I wanted you to experience the thoughts of a prisoner. So you have. And there is so much more, but that’s enough for now. May God guide you to stand for righteousness sake. But we have to give up the bread and circus, because we wont do anything while we are comfortable. Easy times make weak men.
Jonathan David
A Pilgrim prisoner
Gerry
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